The Worst.

"Living in a world where you feel all alone, trapped in a room of people, but you feel like you're the only one. I'm on my own.. and I despise the feeling. When did it get this way? Everything is changing and I'm refusing to change who I am to please them. These people are the worst.. and I surrounded myself with them."


My newest Facebook status. No one pays attention to the words that I say when I post them up there. So what they can't figure out is that I'm talking about them..
I talking about the fact that all my real friends are out of my reach now..
I'm talking about my utter HATE for most of the people that I'm forced upon everyday.
I'm talking about the fact that I'm no longer as happy as I once was.
And I don't know how to fixx it. There's not a thing I can do about it. These are the people that I see everyday, regardless if choose to hang out with a different crowd.
If you read this, and wonder.. Why don't you just stopp talking to these people.
Well it's certainly not that simple.
I see these people regardless. Most of them are in my classes, and they talk to me if i want them to or not.
Another question you may be thinking of is Why I'm oh so suddenly depressed.
well at the beginning of the 9th grade.. I only had one of my best friends to hang out with every day.

Ally Posey.
We were the unbeatable duo. Alli G+Ally P forever.
We were supposed to graduate high school together..
and then a series of stupid incidents and stupid irrational reactions to those events took her away from me.. They took my best friend.
Parents are the ultimate cause of my depression, or so I found.


Kasia's mom had to move to DC.
Nick's mom sent him to Boarding School
Kiera's mom wanted to move to bigger house

Even though parents did play a large role in this, I don't completely blame them.
I'd be fine if there were decent people to associate myself with at my school..
but of course, there isn't.
Everyone at Stonewall Jackson High School either annoys me or dislikes me for some unknown reason.

This is my issue.
I miss the past..
I'm scared for the future.
I hate the present.
This is The Worst.